It has been a while since my last blog post/scene recap, so I suppose I should put something here. The problem is I don't have anything to post about. I originally started my blog as a way to document my ascension (or decension rather?) from an inexperienced man to a seasoned, submissive boy. Three months after my first experience, I think I'm there. Of course, "there" is an ever-changing, nebulous goal so I'll never be "there", but I've become comfortable enough with the routine that every experience is mind-blowing anymore.
That's the biggest takeaway from all of this: I'm way comfortable doing these things now than I was when I first started. Like I said in my post about SELF, I didn't want anyone to touch my cock or even go near that area. A month after that I was tied to a wall at 1763 and getting mercilessly edged. Even my biggest barriers and hangups about assplay are breaking down now. Q3 2011 has been one hell of a ride and some of the most fun I've ever had. I'll say it again, thank you to everyone (and I mean EVERYONE) who's given me advice or even just spoken with me about this. You really have truly changed my life for the better.
Of course, it's not all about the bondage and getting jerked off. I've been out of the closet now for two years and I never felt like I was very good at this whole "being gay" thing. I'm straight-acting, I don't give off a vibe, my "gaydar" is completely ineffectual. And then I became friends with Loki and other men, men who have been where I am, who could give me the advice and confidence I need to maybe start a relationship. This past weekend for example, Loki talked* me into going to the LGBT parties at Dragon*Con. I would have never even considered doing anything like that before now, but a little bit of confidence is a powerful thing. I went, I met some awesome folks and I had a good time. Most importantly though, I wasn't at all nervous about it. No leg shaking, no tunnel vision, nothing like that. Just a confident, cute** boy chatting up other cute boys. It was awesome. Thank you sir.
*Ok, he technically locked me in a puppy collar and had dragged me around on a leash, but my point still stands.
**Cute AND modest!
Alright, lets not beat around the bushes, we all know why we're here. I've been lazy about recapping my sessions, so you'll have to make do with a chronological overview via pictures.
Gear night at The Eagle. (Thanks to atlantarubber for finding the UA shirt at a thrift store and thinking of me :) )
Photos from my shoot at 1763 are available on my various profiles, linked at the top of the sidebar.