The Deep End
Oh boy, I’ve done it now…
A few weeks ago, I told loki that I wanted to explore my submissive side by becoming his boy. Keep in mind that, a year ago, he was going through a similar process (which he documented on his blog) and that being a “sir” was a completely new experience for him.
But it looks like he caught the urge too so now here we are: Every time we’ve played together I’ve had a collar locked around my neck and his name is Sir. Jerking off without his First permission is verboten^1 and now I’ve wholesale nba jerseys got a homework assignment:
Loki: part of what’s in my raft is the willingness of the boy to do some introspection and occasional homework assignments. So here’s your assignment:
Loki: Four lists
Loki: 3-5 things you’ve done and loved, 3-5 things you’ve done and haven’t enjoyed
Loki: 3-5 things you really want to do
Loki: And anything that’s absolutely off limits
Things I’ve loved #
- Being submissive – Slap a collar, some handcuffs and a leash on me and you’ve got a sub. Tell me I can’t jerk off and I’ll be hard as a rock. Give me orders and I’ll melt into a puddle of endorphin-fueled bliss^2.
- Flogging – Oh lord flogging is awesome.
- Topping – Having power of someone else is awesome. My bottom of choice is a wonderfully sensitive guy with buttons to press all over his body. And he hates being in public in just a jock.
- Straitjackets – It’s like you can’t stop hugging yourself! That aside, there’s something about being strapped into a SJ, blindfolded and left kneeling somewhere that really appeals to me.
- Wrestling – I’ve only done it once, but had I been thinking, I would have asked the top to tie me up once I was pinned.
- Talking – For the last decade, I’ve been into bondage and gear. For the last five-seven years I’ve been scouring the internet, trying to find what interests me. But I never engaged. I had empty profiles on Recon and GearFetish for years before I put anything into them. But my second day at SELF I met the group I play with and was able to speak freely and openly about my bondage and gear fetishes. It was amazing to just shoot the shit like that.
Things I haven’t enjoyed #
- Tickling – Not that I really have an opinion when I’m chained to a wall, but tickling kinda takes me out of the headspace. But if the top likes it, well then I don’t really have another option.
- Gags – It sucks and I hate it more than anything, but I’ve got a highly active gag reflex. For the time being, gags that fill the mouth behind the teeth are a no-go. Bar/bit gags and muzzles are preferred.
- Standing bondage – I’ve been tied to walls and cages several times over the last month and I’ll tell you what, my back is killing me. I’ll be the first to admit, 1763 isn’t exactly set up for me to lie down, but I think a balance of standing/sitting/kneeling/lying down would be ideal.
- Pup Play – I’ve done this a little bit, but was unable to get into the proper headspace. Of course, this also happened at 1763 in front of about 40 other guys, so that’s not entirely unexpected. I do want to try it again though.
Things I really want to do #
- Get punished – Everything you can think of, from stress positions to hair pulling is on the table if I act out.
- Roleplay/Interrogation – I know it sounds a bit silly, but I can think up Towards a few scenarios I’d like to play out one wholesale jerseys day. They all tie in nicely withâ€¦
- Gear fetishes – Karate uniforms, wetsuits, football uniforms, basically any sports gear + bondage is something I’d like to explore even more, now that I’ve started doing this for real.
- Long term captivity – I’d love to be kept in some form of restraint for a whole weekend Sand one day. Fist mitts and a muzzle? Locked in a cage? Chained to a pole in your basement?
Things that are off limits #
- Poppers or drugs of any sort – Common sense more than anything. I’ve read far too many horror stories about this sort charm of thing cheap nfl jerseys and it’s one of many reasons why I do my due diligence^3.
- Sounding – Nope. Don’t get the appeal. Keep that away from my dick.
- Scat/WS/Blood/Permanent Marks – Absolutely not.
- Sex of any kind – Two reasons. First, bondage is sex for me. Fucking doesn’t really add anything to the scene. And second, I’m saving myself for that special someone ?
- Other things – An apology in advance: I don’t know what my limits ?r?k are just yet. It’s only a matter of time before one Dos of the unknowns pops up in the middle of a scene and I have to safeword out.
So there you have it. That’s me in a nutshell.
I’ve wholesale jerseys been under this rule for about 24 hours now and it goede sucks. At the same time though, I got up early this morning and was at work 45 minutes before I was supposed to be. Go figure.
Side thought: I’m normally a very alpha, leader type person. Never thought I’d be into this sort of thing but here I am.
EVERYONE should do due diligence on prospective play partners. Play safe damnit!